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Name: butch_femme
Metro: Manila
Birthday: 3/2/1983
Gender: Female
Interests: Anything goes with me..as long as im free..well most of the time I am..hihi..love music so much..i don't read a lot..except FHM..i play with my guitar..sometimes...if i feel like to..if m crazy..i write..poems...novels...wahaha..kidding..just poems..or any story about myself..this is how i release my sadness or loneliness...sometimes...happiness...wehehee...
Expertise: I'm a flexible type of person who can easily deal with different people....loves to analyze people's behavior...but don't be scared..i respect individuality...just show me the real you..don't pretend that ur someone..who's too good to be true...coz..if i found out that ure one of them..better lock urself in a closet...hihi...
Occupation: Medical
Message: message me
Yahoo:  phoema_18@yahoo.com
Member Since:
4/8/2005
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| before she was just a word.. a name that I often heard..but never came to my existence.. but the name alone defines everything..the word alone suggests her well being.. now, her existence made me stronger..her existence made me feel worthy.. don't have to hear her name to define everything.. don't have to hear a word to find her well being.. the thought of being with her is enough..once a name..an existence.. now is already mine..i belong to her..to only her..never to leave her side.. never to make her feel unloved..I am yours..only yours.. You are the sweetest that ever happened to me.. And I have fallen deeply inlove with you... with Only you.. | | |
| i've been in front of my computer for almost half of the day..I updated my page in my friendster and downelink..and even updated my sister's page just to have a reason of using this computer..hehehe..m kind of lazy to clean our house today...so it doesn't matter to me if i am now wearing a shades while typing this...this blog..ehehehe..as long as i am n front of this damn technology...<lolz> since im done with all the updates..i remembered to visit this site and create a story..<nonsense story>...about my adventurous yet simple life!! Huh?! ahihihi..whatever...my life has a lot of adventures coz...i've been into a lot of struggles that i don't take it very seriously...i don't wanna waste my time thinking about those problems coz it just gives me a lot of pimples and eventually wrinkles..i laugh everything that happens in my life..evn how negative it is..maybe at first, i would feel depressed about it...but later on..im ok..coz i know that there's a lot of people around me..not only to support me but also to share my life with...i believe in the saying life is too short..so im spending my life to the fullest and accepting the reality that bad things are really happening to everyone..it depends on the person how to deal with it...living in a simple way is one of my appeals to other people...<naks!> i don't have so many things on my body..just an earing, watch and a necklace...m putting them on when im going out to mall or party..at home..i dont have any metals on...sometimes even my bra...wehehehe... so that's why my life is adventurous yet simple... | | |
| gee..it's been a long time since i haven't write anything about my life here....well, ive been very busy with my work for the past few months...anyway, m in a relationship again..i met her through downelink...FYI, downelink is a site for lesbians and gays around the world..it's nice to be one of the L-world...i met different types of women..bisexual, lesbian and those girls who are just curious about us..going back, this girl is really pretty..all the qualities that im looking for are in her..though we haven't met yet..i think im gonna fall in love with her if we meet..and..its true..we met last week..she hang out here in my house and we drank..of course..something happened between us...so after that day..she's my girlfriend already...nice ryt?! but the saddest part here is that im not the only girl in her life..i took the risk of being her girlfriend because i know that eventually she will find out that im the "girlfriend thingy" that she's looking for..she opened up that her lovelife was miserable..she has a bf and her bf is not giving her enough love and care that she is supposed to receive..when i heard that, i told myself that one day..this girl will feel the happiness...that is only if she will realize my importance..now, im doing my best to show to her how much she means to me...though im not saying the magic word..ILOVEYOU..coz its too early to say that...still, im treating her as if im the only person in her life...il hold on until she feels the same feeling that i have for her...it's so hard for me to be in this situation, coz to tell you the truth..this is my first time to fall inlove with a girl who's a stranger to me...and i am willing to know her better even how bad or complicated she is...coz..this feeling is so true...and im not gonna waste my time to any person who is worthless..i believe in her..because for me..she is unique and worthy to feel the true love...from me...:) | | |
| m terribly lonely...know wat..i met a girl 3 weeks ago...it was my friend's birthday...she's pretty which made me attracted to her..i thought it would be just that..an acquaintance..but..things went differently...i think m starting to fall in love with this girl...we celebrated the birthday at the bar...we had fun that night...actually, i had a great fun..i was with her all through the night..we're both crazy...we sang together..we teased with each other..that made me reaalllyyy had a crush on her..it seems that we have same personality..she was so nice to me...but.after that evening...things started to change..i took her number through my friend..i began to text her..and even tried to call her..we talked for 15 minutes on the phone...still we teased each other during the conversation..my friend told me that she had been in this kind of relationship..so..she thinks that i will have a chance to win her heart...so..tried my best to have a communication with angel..but..now..i think i should stop this feeling...Yesterday, i tried to call her again..i made 3 attempts...but..no one answer the phone..so, i guess she's trying to avoid me...Coz i know that she already knows I have a hidden desire on her...My friend gave me an advice last night that our relationship should start with friendship...hhmmm....well, that's ok with me...but i don't think it will be smooth..coz i know my feelings will affect it....I deleted her number on my phone so I wouldn't have the chance to text or call her..That's the reason why m so terribly lonely...Aside from being alone here at home...I also feel stupid coz...I made a move that I should not have done...I should have kept it in myself...I don't know what will happen if we will see each other again..i think i will act differently coz of what I did...hhmmm..this is what i really hate everytime I fall in love...im becoming impulsive to my actions..I don't even think first before I put it into actions...whew...just hope she would still accept me to be her friend..and I hope..someday..I could win her heart... | | |
| hmm....m here at the cafe....m looking again for a job....after this m going to pass my resume in one of the companies here in Manila...i jz hope something good will happen to me...m really frustrated to get a job!!! anyway, i don't like the weather today...it's raining.....i don't want my pants to get wet....harharhar....but...what can i do??? it's NATURE!!! you know wat????! early in the morning my dad scold me...i really hate him!!!! i hate his attitude!!!! he's a kind of man...OLD MAN...who is so stubborn!!!! he's so addict with liquor!!!! and...to think...it's bad for his health!!! he's diabetic and yet he's still drinking a lot!!!! AND this morning he was scolding me for not drinking my milk!!!????? WAT??!!! and not only that he's telling me that IM stubborn!!! im already sick???!! NO way!!! m not ill!!! he's the one who is very ill!!! i hate him for not knowing his own mistakes!!!! anyway...i jz let myself vent here....m not xpecting someone will understand me...but...if there will be......all I can say is.....THANK YOU!!! ciao!!!! | | |
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